UPDATE
JANUARY 14, 2008
We had about 8 inches of new snow today. Early January had spoiled us with warmer temperatures and much melting of the December snows. So far this winter, we have had 35 inches of the white stuff. Our daughter-in-law hasn’t had enough yet, thankfully.
Jack has continued to improve. His walking endurance has been improving slowly. Today he actually had some work on stairs. He has not done any stairs since November 14. Since our house has stairs everywhere, it is very desirable to work on stairs. He has a very long journey before he gets back to where he was on November 14. He is so determined that with much hard work, he will give it his best try.
Jack had his MRI scan on Friday. He commented that it was the worst one yet to the point that he thinks that when he has the next one that he may need some medication.
If you have never had one, it is a daunting experience. Jack has a dye injected into his vein so that any tumor, inflammation, or swelling will light up in his brain. He is then placed on and strapped down on a board. He is then pushed into a tube like tunnel. It is very important not to move in the process. It takes about 45 minutes. Once the machine is turned on, it sounds like a jack hammer that breaks up road pavement. If a person has claustrophobia, they are in serious trouble. If you don’t have claustrophobia, you probably will after these test especially if it is part of a routine.
The test results looked worse than the one after surgery. It showed more swelling and more tissue death. We had been warned early on by the radiologist that his MRI scans would look worse for several months. She said that it takes about a year for the brain to heal from the radiation. The good news is that they do not see any mass growth. The other good news we got was that the chemotherapy test on the “live” tissue from Oncotech in CA and it showed no live cancer cells at all. That information does not mean that there are none left in the brain but not to find any in the sample is remarkable and encouraging. The doctors recommended that he consider using an angiogenesis drug for 3 cycles – 1 treatment every 2 weeks for 6 weeks. This drug is known to cut off the blood supply to any tumor cells that may remain. Jack has agreed to do this treatment.
I had intended to post this latest update last evening but I developed acute tendonitis in my right hand and could not move my fingers. After doing my home remedies and going to a neuromuscular massage therapist today, my hand is red, swollen, and sore but I do have mobility. One of the problems that I continue to have other than fatigue is foot and hand pain. I am convinced it is the marathon I am running with very little rest that is causing these issues which are new for me. It makes me think of a saying my grandfather had – “the pain he thought was going to be fatal yesterday had been replaced by a new one today”!!! Do I ever understand that saying! Getting old is not for sissies! I fully hope that my hand will be much better tomorrow.
On a Jack note, you may remember that Jack was keeping a detailed journal of this experience. Since he was first admitted to the hospital, the copious notes had stopped. This evening when I went to see him, he had written four pages of things he wanted to ask the doctor, me, as well as observations about events of the day. I was so encouraged since he has shown no interest in writing or reading anything for weeks now, especially since his brain surgery. I have been reading to him and he enjoys that activity but he hasn’t wanted to do it himself. He is getting stronger daily. The road ahead is uncertain, the road behind us has been challenging. Our hope and desire is to glorify our Lord throughout this experience. It makes me think of a verse in I Peter 4:12. “Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you.” I Peter 1:7 – “That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perishes, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.” The question arises how can we glorify God in the midst of fiery trials? (This is copied from a pastor’s bulletin. I thought it worth sharing in a condensed form.)
By acknowledging His providence in all things. Nothing happens by chance. The purpose of the Lord is at work in all of our trials.
We glorify God in the midst of fiery trials by acknowledging his wisdom in all He does.
We glorify God in the midst of fiery trials by acknowledging all He brings to pass is for our benefit.
We glorify God in the midst of fiery trials by acknowledging His power to sustain us while passing through the fire.
We glorify God in the midst of fiery trials by trusting Him at all times. From Isaiah 12:2 – “Behold, God is my salvation: I will trust and not be afraid.”
The Lord continues to sustain us and bless us in the midst of this fiery trial.
One of the many blessings that we are experiencing is enjoying the other patients at the rehab facility. You may remember Frank. Last week Frank graduated from rehab to home successfully. We had a party. Since most residents are on a special diet, I could not bring food for anyone (I did bring Frank and Jack ice cream since they are not on a special diet.) I got Frank a purple and green sponge like crown for him to wear as well as 3 helium star balloons to tie on his wheel chair. Ann, another resident, who has a very flat affect in her voice intonation, suggested we needed to sing a song. I asked her if she could sing – she said only Happy Birthday. So I suggested we use the tune of Happy Birthday and change it to Happy Graduation Day. Everyone joined in. We had a great time. We called to make sure Frank had successfully gotten home and he had. On another note, Ann announced this evening that she is graduating on Thursday and then proceeded to inquire as to what we were going to do on Wednesday. As you can see, we have a very good time under these circumstances. My hope is that when I am sitting in one of these seats of these infirmed people someday that someone will come and brighten my day.
On Saturday, I leave for LA to attend a one day meeting and rest for 3 days. Hopefully, I can recharge my batteries which need replacing at the moment. The children are in charge. They are doing a great job at helping. Courtenay spent Saturday afternoon with Jack and took in a card game to play which I thought was a great idea. Other residents joined in. Jonathan and Megan and Tibit come when they can and make us laugh.
Tibit is a 3.5 pound daucsand/poodle mix who is black and curly like a poodle with a little body and tail like a daucsand. She is fun, funny, and cuddly. I am most happy to dog sit. She makes us laugh and she already knows she is loved. If you want to see pictures, you can visit Jonathan’s website at www.apelike.net/3000-mi.
Jack’s sister, Myra, sent the following to me that I think is also worth sharing.
WHAT CANCER CANNOT DO
Cancer cannot cripple love.
Cancer cannot shatter hope.
Cancer cannot corrode faith.
Cancer cannot destroy peace.
Cancer cannot kill friendships.
Cancer cannot suppress memories.
Cancer cannot silence courage.
Cancer cannot invade the soul.
Cancer cannot steal eternal life.
Cancer cannot conquer the spirit.
Thank you to all who call and visit. Knowing so many care so much is very appreciated.
Blessings,
Carolyn
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Sunday, January 6, 2008
UPDATE January 6, 2008
UPDATE
January 6, 2007
We have begun the new year with Jack’s successful transfer to Lexington Healthcare Center at 178 Lowell St. in Lexington. He was successfully discharged from Lahey Clinic on December 27. He was placed in a private room immediately. One of the things that I have learned in this experience is that medical care has so many layers affiliated with it. One of these layers is the case manager role. It is a role that I would not want. So far I have not found one that really takes responsibility. I could write a book on these people. Here is a classic example of our experiences. Jack was to be discharged from Lahey Clinic on December 26, 2007. I was advised to get to Lahey as soon as possible for this event. I arrived. I notified the nurses, called the case manager, and waited patiently – remember that it was urgent that I get there. Two hours lapsed and finally the case manager showed up to say they were trying to find a place for Jack. Jack refused to return to Winchester. The Lexington Healthcare Center was on our short list prior to our 18 hour stay in Winchester. I decided to go visit it. Prior to my leaving, I had told the case manager that I wanted a private room for Jack. She informed me that Medicare does not pay for private rooms and that we would have to pay the difference. I told her no problem. I go visit the Center, I asked the admissions coordinator about the cost differential for a private room. She said there is none at their facility apparently because they have so many private rooms – this facility was bought out and significantly upgraded recently. Maybe someone is getting smarter about care giving! She did inform me that Jack would have to be approved. I told her to initiate that review. In the meantime, I return to Lahey Clinic to find that the case manager had left for the day and that Jack would not be discharged that day. I left a message with an on call case manager who never called back. The next day I finally contacted the case manager, she was not the same one from the previous day; had no idea what I was talking about in regard to Jack transferring to Lexington Healthcare Center, after all, she was not on the day before and knew nothing. I keep forgetting that people do not read!!! To make a long story shorter, he was approved for the facility and he was to be moved. The admission’s coordinator called to tell me. She said there is good news and bad news. “The good news is that Jack was approved for admission; the bad news is that they are not Blue Cross/Blue Schield (BC/BS) approved but are seeking approval”. The cost sharing after Day 20 (first 20 days are covered by Medicare) is $125/day; the next 80 days are shared with Medicare and patient unless the supplemental insurance is an approved insurance. I agreed to do this sharing of costs since we really like the environment and I did want Jack to move again. When I approached the case manager at Lahey and told her that this facility was not BC/BS approved, she had no idea along with no idea that a private room did not have a cost sharing with Medicare. When I asked her why she did not know this important information, she claimed too much to remember and too many facilities that she deals with daily. The bottom line is “they do not read”!!!! It is a very frustrating experience dealing with the layers and some of the people in the layers. I cannot imagine how difficult all of this must be for infirmed and especially the elderly. It is all in day’s work. I keep remembering the verse in Psalms 118:24 – “This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”
Yes, even the days that are more demanding than others.
When Jack arrived at Lexington Healthcare Center, he was very weak, hardly able to get out of bed. Eleven days later, he is clearly 100% stronger than he was a week ago for which we are most thankful. Elizabeth, our private nurse’s aid, is staying from 7:00 AM – 2:00 PM. Jack’s engineering mind really does expect things to be done in a timely and efficient manner. I am certainly more comfortable knowing he has such good attention. One of the nice things about the facility is that meals are taken in a dining room instead of the patient’s room. A person has a choice but Jack chooses to go the dining room for lunch and dinner. We have met many wonderful caregivers and patients. One patient in particular is a 92 year old man named Frank. Frank grew up in Cambridge near Harvard Square. He is recovering from a broken hip. When we arrived, Frank seemed depressed and was barely eating. Jack and Frank have become big buddies. Jack has a farmer’s appetite. He amazes everyone who watches him eat, especially the amount. I told Frank that Jack grew up on a farm in Kentucky. I told him he left the farm but took his appetite with him.
I generally join Jack each evening while he is having his dinner. One evening, I was late due to an appointment. When I arrived, Frank had finished his dinner. I told him how impressed I was with his dinner being eaten. He got a big smile on his face and said I just learned that Jack was a MIT professor. We were having such a good conversation that I forgot what I was doing. Ever since that night, Frank has been finishing his dinner. He is very proud of this fete as are we. We have a nightly bet about how much he can eat. Also, after dinner each evening, I have been reading a book on the history of Winchester to Jack and Frank. Frank asks each evening, “Are we going to read tonight?” It is so amazing how little effort it takes to stimulate these minds in the dining room but mostly no one has the time due to do the other more important and demanding needs. You get to know things about these patients. One lady, Nancy, has severe shaking of her hands to the point she needs help eating. Nancy must have been a chain smoker since they keep her with a straw in her hand and she puffs away the days on the straw. Many of these people are elderly and spend most of their days sitting so it does not take a lot to make a little difference. I told Jack that he has gotten Frank eating better. Jack has also helped out some elderly ladies get help to take them to the bathroom. Then there is Jay, Mary, Maria and several others. We definitely have created a more interesting environment. The nursing staff are excellent and are very helpful. Everyone in an environment like this one are forgotten but the caregivers are amazingly. Tonight we had several others join us for our reading. It takes so little effort to make a difference. Jack said one of the good things about the experience of being in this environment is that he sees a side of the world he never knew much about. We are so grateful for the many helping hands.
Jack has learned he can ambulate with wheels. Early in the week, we discovered that his wheel chair only had one leg rest for his left, weak leg. We inquired and they told us they wanted Jack using his right leg to get around. I showed him how far he could go. He was ambivalent in the beginning but soon learned that he could have much more freedom. He can walk about 50 steps at a time assisted by someone standing near him. He is still very wobbly. He is generally in good spirits. He does seem irritable at times. We understand that some of the side effects of his antiseizure medication is irritability.
On January 4, Jack and I shared our 39th wedding anniversary. I took in special desserts to share with Frank, Jack, and myself. We spent the remainder of the evening talking about the many blessings we have shared over our 39 years. Everyone commented on how long we have been married. I told them my grandfather would have called us an endangered species. My only comment was that it is not long enough. Jack commented that it was a very special anniversary because we may not have more than about one more. We do not know, we continue to be thankful for each day, soak in the blessings, and leave the rest behind. One of Jack’s comments was that one of the Lord’s great gifts to us has been the gift of each other and our marriage. He also commented as great as that gift is the most important thing is recognizing the giver of the gift, our Lord. So we “give thanks to the Lord for he is good; his love endures forever.” Psalm 118:29
Our goal and hope is that as Jack gains strength and stamina that we may be able to bring him home in a few weeks. He will need care 7 days a week but overall we hope and pray that he will be able to achieve this goal. We go through each day recognizing that Jack is very vulnerable but hoping that he has many good months ahead without more setbacks. If anyone would like to call him, he can be reached at 781-778-3751. This number is his direct line. He may not talk long or he may tell you he doesn’t feel like talking but it would be a reminder that people are thinking of him. If he doesn’t answer, he may be with his therapists.
This Friday, he is scheduled for his routine MRI scan to determine if his brain is stable. We will be discussing his next course of treatment. We seek your prayers as we continue to travel this journey. Our prayer for all of you is the Lord will bless you with His abundance in the New Year.
Blessings,
Carolyn
January 6, 2007
We have begun the new year with Jack’s successful transfer to Lexington Healthcare Center at 178 Lowell St. in Lexington. He was successfully discharged from Lahey Clinic on December 27. He was placed in a private room immediately. One of the things that I have learned in this experience is that medical care has so many layers affiliated with it. One of these layers is the case manager role. It is a role that I would not want. So far I have not found one that really takes responsibility. I could write a book on these people. Here is a classic example of our experiences. Jack was to be discharged from Lahey Clinic on December 26, 2007. I was advised to get to Lahey as soon as possible for this event. I arrived. I notified the nurses, called the case manager, and waited patiently – remember that it was urgent that I get there. Two hours lapsed and finally the case manager showed up to say they were trying to find a place for Jack. Jack refused to return to Winchester. The Lexington Healthcare Center was on our short list prior to our 18 hour stay in Winchester. I decided to go visit it. Prior to my leaving, I had told the case manager that I wanted a private room for Jack. She informed me that Medicare does not pay for private rooms and that we would have to pay the difference. I told her no problem. I go visit the Center, I asked the admissions coordinator about the cost differential for a private room. She said there is none at their facility apparently because they have so many private rooms – this facility was bought out and significantly upgraded recently. Maybe someone is getting smarter about care giving! She did inform me that Jack would have to be approved. I told her to initiate that review. In the meantime, I return to Lahey Clinic to find that the case manager had left for the day and that Jack would not be discharged that day. I left a message with an on call case manager who never called back. The next day I finally contacted the case manager, she was not the same one from the previous day; had no idea what I was talking about in regard to Jack transferring to Lexington Healthcare Center, after all, she was not on the day before and knew nothing. I keep forgetting that people do not read!!! To make a long story shorter, he was approved for the facility and he was to be moved. The admission’s coordinator called to tell me. She said there is good news and bad news. “The good news is that Jack was approved for admission; the bad news is that they are not Blue Cross/Blue Schield (BC/BS) approved but are seeking approval”. The cost sharing after Day 20 (first 20 days are covered by Medicare) is $125/day; the next 80 days are shared with Medicare and patient unless the supplemental insurance is an approved insurance. I agreed to do this sharing of costs since we really like the environment and I did want Jack to move again. When I approached the case manager at Lahey and told her that this facility was not BC/BS approved, she had no idea along with no idea that a private room did not have a cost sharing with Medicare. When I asked her why she did not know this important information, she claimed too much to remember and too many facilities that she deals with daily. The bottom line is “they do not read”!!!! It is a very frustrating experience dealing with the layers and some of the people in the layers. I cannot imagine how difficult all of this must be for infirmed and especially the elderly. It is all in day’s work. I keep remembering the verse in Psalms 118:24 – “This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”
Yes, even the days that are more demanding than others.
When Jack arrived at Lexington Healthcare Center, he was very weak, hardly able to get out of bed. Eleven days later, he is clearly 100% stronger than he was a week ago for which we are most thankful. Elizabeth, our private nurse’s aid, is staying from 7:00 AM – 2:00 PM. Jack’s engineering mind really does expect things to be done in a timely and efficient manner. I am certainly more comfortable knowing he has such good attention. One of the nice things about the facility is that meals are taken in a dining room instead of the patient’s room. A person has a choice but Jack chooses to go the dining room for lunch and dinner. We have met many wonderful caregivers and patients. One patient in particular is a 92 year old man named Frank. Frank grew up in Cambridge near Harvard Square. He is recovering from a broken hip. When we arrived, Frank seemed depressed and was barely eating. Jack and Frank have become big buddies. Jack has a farmer’s appetite. He amazes everyone who watches him eat, especially the amount. I told Frank that Jack grew up on a farm in Kentucky. I told him he left the farm but took his appetite with him.
I generally join Jack each evening while he is having his dinner. One evening, I was late due to an appointment. When I arrived, Frank had finished his dinner. I told him how impressed I was with his dinner being eaten. He got a big smile on his face and said I just learned that Jack was a MIT professor. We were having such a good conversation that I forgot what I was doing. Ever since that night, Frank has been finishing his dinner. He is very proud of this fete as are we. We have a nightly bet about how much he can eat. Also, after dinner each evening, I have been reading a book on the history of Winchester to Jack and Frank. Frank asks each evening, “Are we going to read tonight?” It is so amazing how little effort it takes to stimulate these minds in the dining room but mostly no one has the time due to do the other more important and demanding needs. You get to know things about these patients. One lady, Nancy, has severe shaking of her hands to the point she needs help eating. Nancy must have been a chain smoker since they keep her with a straw in her hand and she puffs away the days on the straw. Many of these people are elderly and spend most of their days sitting so it does not take a lot to make a little difference. I told Jack that he has gotten Frank eating better. Jack has also helped out some elderly ladies get help to take them to the bathroom. Then there is Jay, Mary, Maria and several others. We definitely have created a more interesting environment. The nursing staff are excellent and are very helpful. Everyone in an environment like this one are forgotten but the caregivers are amazingly. Tonight we had several others join us for our reading. It takes so little effort to make a difference. Jack said one of the good things about the experience of being in this environment is that he sees a side of the world he never knew much about. We are so grateful for the many helping hands.
Jack has learned he can ambulate with wheels. Early in the week, we discovered that his wheel chair only had one leg rest for his left, weak leg. We inquired and they told us they wanted Jack using his right leg to get around. I showed him how far he could go. He was ambivalent in the beginning but soon learned that he could have much more freedom. He can walk about 50 steps at a time assisted by someone standing near him. He is still very wobbly. He is generally in good spirits. He does seem irritable at times. We understand that some of the side effects of his antiseizure medication is irritability.
On January 4, Jack and I shared our 39th wedding anniversary. I took in special desserts to share with Frank, Jack, and myself. We spent the remainder of the evening talking about the many blessings we have shared over our 39 years. Everyone commented on how long we have been married. I told them my grandfather would have called us an endangered species. My only comment was that it is not long enough. Jack commented that it was a very special anniversary because we may not have more than about one more. We do not know, we continue to be thankful for each day, soak in the blessings, and leave the rest behind. One of Jack’s comments was that one of the Lord’s great gifts to us has been the gift of each other and our marriage. He also commented as great as that gift is the most important thing is recognizing the giver of the gift, our Lord. So we “give thanks to the Lord for he is good; his love endures forever.” Psalm 118:29
Our goal and hope is that as Jack gains strength and stamina that we may be able to bring him home in a few weeks. He will need care 7 days a week but overall we hope and pray that he will be able to achieve this goal. We go through each day recognizing that Jack is very vulnerable but hoping that he has many good months ahead without more setbacks. If anyone would like to call him, he can be reached at 781-778-3751. This number is his direct line. He may not talk long or he may tell you he doesn’t feel like talking but it would be a reminder that people are thinking of him. If he doesn’t answer, he may be with his therapists.
This Friday, he is scheduled for his routine MRI scan to determine if his brain is stable. We will be discussing his next course of treatment. We seek your prayers as we continue to travel this journey. Our prayer for all of you is the Lord will bless you with His abundance in the New Year.
Blessings,
Carolyn
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Christmas Day 2007 UPDATE
UPDATE
December 25, 2007
Last evening ‘twas the night before Christmas. Not a creature was stirring, not even Carolyn or Jack. I have not updated the report now for 2 weeks. Partly, because my schedule was/is so chaotic that I hardly had time to breathe much less sit down and write anything. There was no stirring last night because we were all exhausted and finally sleeping peacefully.
Not only have we been bombarded with 19.6 inches of snow this month but followed by sleet and ice. Coupled with managing the weather, I was visiting Jack 1-2 times each day between work and coping with many more people traveling happily about gathering their Christmas gifts. In the midst of that, I decided to fly to NC to help my siblings and parents celebrate my Dad’s 84th birthday. I told him that my presents were my presence. (Is it any wonder people struggle with English?). I might add that the Lord knew I needed that trip since it was the only day last week that it was either not snowing or Jack was not in crisis. I had called my Dad to wish him a happy birthday on the way from the airport while driving to see them. My Mother said, “I wish you could be here”. I said “me too”. It was a fun filled day most of which was the sheer shock of me showing up without my parents having a clue. I thought I was going to have to resuscitate my Mother. It was 12 well spent hours, the calm before a mighty storm that was to follow not only in the weather but with Jack as well.
Jack had been making steady progress for 18 days at NE Rehabilitation hospital that is an acute rehab environment. Since the medical team felt strongly that he was no longer medically acute, he was ready for the next phase that was sub-acute rehab environment in a skilled nursing facility in Winchester. The hope and plan was that he would spend 2-3 weeks there continuing to gain his strength in hope that home would be his next destination. Jack has not been home now since November 14 – 6 weeks to be exact.
In the event that some of you have never been a caregiver, the logistics alone are very exhausting. I am so thankful for the Lord’s daily supply of energy that is provided. It reminds me of the account in the Old Testament of the Lord supplying the manna to the Israelites when they were in the wilderness. Each day they were given just as much as they needed, except on the weekend, they were given a two days supply. I am learning to be so dependent on the daily supply of “manna”. It is a remarkable place to be. Trust me I have days, just as the Israelites did, when I remember having more than that amount of what is needed.
Jack was transferred to Winchester Nursing Center on Friday, December 21. I was with him for several hours. I was very impressed with the admission process and the apparent level of service and care that I was told he would receive. He was in the room with 2 other men with a transfer to private room promised in a couple of days. We were told that we were very fortunate to find a room so quickly because “male” beds are very difficult to obtain in these facilities.
Jack was in Winchester Nursing Center for about 18 hours. He had called me at 3:00 AM telling me that he was unable to sleep and again at 6:55 AM telling me that he needed some help and no one was attending to him. Jack seemed very agitated and hung up on me when I told him that he needed to contact the nurse that I couldn’t help him. I called the nurse’s station to let them know about his needs and I was advised that they would send someone to him. At 10:30 AM, I received a call from the attending physician, Dr. Kolb, at the Center telling me that he had called an ambulance for Jack because he did not look well at all and was very ill. He was throwing up, was nauseated, disoriented, and very pale. He was concerned that he was having a brain bleed. Needless to say, I headed to Lahey Clinic’s emergency room. Christmas traffic was horrific since the road to Lahey Clinic is the same road to the mall. I was moving at snail’s pace when I heard the ambulance. I was about ¾ the way to the hospital when the ambulance passed me. I put my flashing lights on, and followed in behind the ambulance. The ambulance drivers really scolded me when I arrived but I let them have their say. The good news was that I was there waiting for Jack when they opened the doors. Jack was very lethargic and responding poorly. They started running tests on him, x-raying him, and observing him. After he became nauseated several times, the Dr. decided to administer an anti-nausea medication. It made him feel better but also sleepier. A neurosurgery physician came in and ordered a CT scan. The good news was that his scan looked very good. However, what they did discover was 2 things: his sodium levels were dangerously low and he had pneumonia even though he did not have a temperature.
These events made for a very long night. Jack became delirious and incoherent. He was fighting everyone and trying to get out of the bed. I am very surprised that his entire right side is not sore from his struggles. He was extremely agitated which became much worse after a new anti-nausea medicine was given. This lasted for about 10 hours. He was so severely different that I decided to stay all night with him after they admitted him.
During all of these events, Viktor Vejins, Jack’s company CEO, called to say he was on the way to the emergency room. I think he must have GPS on Jack. No one knew we had gone to the emergency room except the children. Viktor had gone to NE Rehab to visit Jack to find out that he had been transferred to Winchester Nursing Center. When he arrived there, they told him that Jack had been sent to the emergency room. Thank you Viktor for “showing up” in our time of need. (Remember the “manna” analogy). It is one more example of our every need being provided.
Around 4:00 AM, Jack called out to me. He thought he was at Winchester Nursing Center. He had no idea where he was, how he got there, or why he was there.
During the night the nurses gave him an antibiotic drip via IV. Jack’s temperature increased over night but was normal in the morning. He slept most of Sunday and Sunday evening. I talked to him early Monday morning. He has absolutely no memory of the weekend. I was so thankful for that miracle.
Currently, Jack is improving. They determined that he was not dehydrated, so they have withheld liquids from him – he only has one quart/day of fluids – in hopes that the sodium would start binding so he would begin feeling much better. They determined that he was not dehydrated since hydration did not improve his sodium levels. The pneumonia has cleared and the sodium levels have increased for that we are most thankful. I stayed with him until mid-morning on Sunday prior to Megan and Jonathan coming to stay with him for a few hours. He has no memory of us being there. One of things they tried to put together was why his sodium levels dropped so low. Jack had begun taking Zoloft, a serotonin antidepressant, to counteract the post steroid depression symptoms. We were told on Monday, by a Lahey Clinic endocrinologist, that brain cancer or brain surgery patients should never take serotonin drugs. One of the side effects is reduced sodium. I think endocrinologists and psychiatrists should have a conversation. Also, pneumonia can cause reduced sodium levels. The combination almost killed Jack. I truly wonder how many people die each year from a drug reaction. Most of us probably do not want to know that much information.
As we wait on the Lord for our daily strength, we are now back to waiting on the medical team to decide when they are ready to discharge him. As most of you know by now, I try, by God’s grace, to find beauty in the moments that we are given. One of those moments came when Dr. Cosgrove, chief of neurosurgery who removed Jack’s tumor, came by to check on him on Christmas Eve. As he was examining Jack, he noticed that his sock was not straight. He stopped what he was doing and put Jack’s sock on so that he was comfortable. It is truly in the little things that you come to know so much about another human. My thoughts were that we truly have a great person for the medical head of Jack’s team.
We met Jack’s neuro-oncologist, Dr. Lloyd Alderson, on December 14. We immediately were impressed with him. We are somewhat biased but correctly we believe. He not only has his medical degree, he also has a PhD in neurochemistry from no less than MIT. He also is very impressive in his warmth and caring. His comment to us is that they are very enthusiastic about the surgery outcome. Dr. Alderson would like to resume the chemotherapy, Temadar. We discussed waiting until Jack is stronger and he agreed that it would be a good idea to give Jack several more weeks of surgery recovery. We are also still waiting for the outcome of the various chemotherapy tests being done in CA on Jack’s tumor.
As we traverse the roller coaster ride of Jack’s illness, I came across a verse that I have embraced. It is Psalm 51:10 “Create in me a pure heart O Lord, and renew a steadfast spirit within me”. The word steadfast has been a stronghold for me as I pondered the steadfast ways of the Lord’s provision to us, most of all the provision of His Son, our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Our prayer for all of you who continue to pray for us, uphold us, and lift us up to our Lord that you would be blessed in the coming year with a greater love for our Lord and for your friends and family.
The greatest gifts to us have been the steadfast spirit that all of you have toward us during this difficult challenge. We so appreciate your abiding love and care and the many expressions to us in your cards, letters, emails, flowers, and gifts. We can never thank you enough for the many ways you demonstrate your love.
We wish all of you blessings in the coming new year,
Carolyn
December 25, 2007
Last evening ‘twas the night before Christmas. Not a creature was stirring, not even Carolyn or Jack. I have not updated the report now for 2 weeks. Partly, because my schedule was/is so chaotic that I hardly had time to breathe much less sit down and write anything. There was no stirring last night because we were all exhausted and finally sleeping peacefully.
Not only have we been bombarded with 19.6 inches of snow this month but followed by sleet and ice. Coupled with managing the weather, I was visiting Jack 1-2 times each day between work and coping with many more people traveling happily about gathering their Christmas gifts. In the midst of that, I decided to fly to NC to help my siblings and parents celebrate my Dad’s 84th birthday. I told him that my presents were my presence. (Is it any wonder people struggle with English?). I might add that the Lord knew I needed that trip since it was the only day last week that it was either not snowing or Jack was not in crisis. I had called my Dad to wish him a happy birthday on the way from the airport while driving to see them. My Mother said, “I wish you could be here”. I said “me too”. It was a fun filled day most of which was the sheer shock of me showing up without my parents having a clue. I thought I was going to have to resuscitate my Mother. It was 12 well spent hours, the calm before a mighty storm that was to follow not only in the weather but with Jack as well.
Jack had been making steady progress for 18 days at NE Rehabilitation hospital that is an acute rehab environment. Since the medical team felt strongly that he was no longer medically acute, he was ready for the next phase that was sub-acute rehab environment in a skilled nursing facility in Winchester. The hope and plan was that he would spend 2-3 weeks there continuing to gain his strength in hope that home would be his next destination. Jack has not been home now since November 14 – 6 weeks to be exact.
In the event that some of you have never been a caregiver, the logistics alone are very exhausting. I am so thankful for the Lord’s daily supply of energy that is provided. It reminds me of the account in the Old Testament of the Lord supplying the manna to the Israelites when they were in the wilderness. Each day they were given just as much as they needed, except on the weekend, they were given a two days supply. I am learning to be so dependent on the daily supply of “manna”. It is a remarkable place to be. Trust me I have days, just as the Israelites did, when I remember having more than that amount of what is needed.
Jack was transferred to Winchester Nursing Center on Friday, December 21. I was with him for several hours. I was very impressed with the admission process and the apparent level of service and care that I was told he would receive. He was in the room with 2 other men with a transfer to private room promised in a couple of days. We were told that we were very fortunate to find a room so quickly because “male” beds are very difficult to obtain in these facilities.
Jack was in Winchester Nursing Center for about 18 hours. He had called me at 3:00 AM telling me that he was unable to sleep and again at 6:55 AM telling me that he needed some help and no one was attending to him. Jack seemed very agitated and hung up on me when I told him that he needed to contact the nurse that I couldn’t help him. I called the nurse’s station to let them know about his needs and I was advised that they would send someone to him. At 10:30 AM, I received a call from the attending physician, Dr. Kolb, at the Center telling me that he had called an ambulance for Jack because he did not look well at all and was very ill. He was throwing up, was nauseated, disoriented, and very pale. He was concerned that he was having a brain bleed. Needless to say, I headed to Lahey Clinic’s emergency room. Christmas traffic was horrific since the road to Lahey Clinic is the same road to the mall. I was moving at snail’s pace when I heard the ambulance. I was about ¾ the way to the hospital when the ambulance passed me. I put my flashing lights on, and followed in behind the ambulance. The ambulance drivers really scolded me when I arrived but I let them have their say. The good news was that I was there waiting for Jack when they opened the doors. Jack was very lethargic and responding poorly. They started running tests on him, x-raying him, and observing him. After he became nauseated several times, the Dr. decided to administer an anti-nausea medication. It made him feel better but also sleepier. A neurosurgery physician came in and ordered a CT scan. The good news was that his scan looked very good. However, what they did discover was 2 things: his sodium levels were dangerously low and he had pneumonia even though he did not have a temperature.
These events made for a very long night. Jack became delirious and incoherent. He was fighting everyone and trying to get out of the bed. I am very surprised that his entire right side is not sore from his struggles. He was extremely agitated which became much worse after a new anti-nausea medicine was given. This lasted for about 10 hours. He was so severely different that I decided to stay all night with him after they admitted him.
During all of these events, Viktor Vejins, Jack’s company CEO, called to say he was on the way to the emergency room. I think he must have GPS on Jack. No one knew we had gone to the emergency room except the children. Viktor had gone to NE Rehab to visit Jack to find out that he had been transferred to Winchester Nursing Center. When he arrived there, they told him that Jack had been sent to the emergency room. Thank you Viktor for “showing up” in our time of need. (Remember the “manna” analogy). It is one more example of our every need being provided.
Around 4:00 AM, Jack called out to me. He thought he was at Winchester Nursing Center. He had no idea where he was, how he got there, or why he was there.
During the night the nurses gave him an antibiotic drip via IV. Jack’s temperature increased over night but was normal in the morning. He slept most of Sunday and Sunday evening. I talked to him early Monday morning. He has absolutely no memory of the weekend. I was so thankful for that miracle.
Currently, Jack is improving. They determined that he was not dehydrated, so they have withheld liquids from him – he only has one quart/day of fluids – in hopes that the sodium would start binding so he would begin feeling much better. They determined that he was not dehydrated since hydration did not improve his sodium levels. The pneumonia has cleared and the sodium levels have increased for that we are most thankful. I stayed with him until mid-morning on Sunday prior to Megan and Jonathan coming to stay with him for a few hours. He has no memory of us being there. One of things they tried to put together was why his sodium levels dropped so low. Jack had begun taking Zoloft, a serotonin antidepressant, to counteract the post steroid depression symptoms. We were told on Monday, by a Lahey Clinic endocrinologist, that brain cancer or brain surgery patients should never take serotonin drugs. One of the side effects is reduced sodium. I think endocrinologists and psychiatrists should have a conversation. Also, pneumonia can cause reduced sodium levels. The combination almost killed Jack. I truly wonder how many people die each year from a drug reaction. Most of us probably do not want to know that much information.
As we wait on the Lord for our daily strength, we are now back to waiting on the medical team to decide when they are ready to discharge him. As most of you know by now, I try, by God’s grace, to find beauty in the moments that we are given. One of those moments came when Dr. Cosgrove, chief of neurosurgery who removed Jack’s tumor, came by to check on him on Christmas Eve. As he was examining Jack, he noticed that his sock was not straight. He stopped what he was doing and put Jack’s sock on so that he was comfortable. It is truly in the little things that you come to know so much about another human. My thoughts were that we truly have a great person for the medical head of Jack’s team.
We met Jack’s neuro-oncologist, Dr. Lloyd Alderson, on December 14. We immediately were impressed with him. We are somewhat biased but correctly we believe. He not only has his medical degree, he also has a PhD in neurochemistry from no less than MIT. He also is very impressive in his warmth and caring. His comment to us is that they are very enthusiastic about the surgery outcome. Dr. Alderson would like to resume the chemotherapy, Temadar. We discussed waiting until Jack is stronger and he agreed that it would be a good idea to give Jack several more weeks of surgery recovery. We are also still waiting for the outcome of the various chemotherapy tests being done in CA on Jack’s tumor.
As we traverse the roller coaster ride of Jack’s illness, I came across a verse that I have embraced. It is Psalm 51:10 “Create in me a pure heart O Lord, and renew a steadfast spirit within me”. The word steadfast has been a stronghold for me as I pondered the steadfast ways of the Lord’s provision to us, most of all the provision of His Son, our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Our prayer for all of you who continue to pray for us, uphold us, and lift us up to our Lord that you would be blessed in the coming year with a greater love for our Lord and for your friends and family.
The greatest gifts to us have been the steadfast spirit that all of you have toward us during this difficult challenge. We so appreciate your abiding love and care and the many expressions to us in your cards, letters, emails, flowers, and gifts. We can never thank you enough for the many ways you demonstrate your love.
We wish all of you blessings in the coming new year,
Carolyn
Sunday, December 9, 2007
December 9, 2007 UPDATE
December 9, 2007
UPDATE
“A difficult week ends peacefully” – this was the headline in the Boston Globe a week ago slightly edited by switching day in the Globe to week by Carolyn.
Jack was transferred back to New England Rehabilitation Hospital on Monday from Lahey Clinic where his surgery was performed. Thankfully, Jack’s sister Myra was able to oversee this transfer which allowed me to work. The transfer went well. He is in Room 102 which is the same area that he was in before. By being in the same area, he has the same therapists. Since they had a very good understanding of him prior to surgery, we believe that they will be better prepared to know what his regression is and where to begin again with him.
Keep in mind that Jack had two major surgeries last week. He was also on 16 mg/day of steroids to reduce brain swelling. He still has two blood clots in his groin and left leg. Now that the tumor is gone and the surgical procedure swelling diminished, the latest medication is a blood thinner to dissolve the clots coupled with a major reduction in the steroids. Steroids give people a false sense of energy and very bad side effects. One of the primary reasons for the surgery was to reduce the steroid use. He is now taking 6 mg/day. Reducing steroids has to be done with much precaution. If the reduction happens too quickly, the body can go into shock. We produce steroids but not enough to control the kind of swelling that Jack had. When extra steroids are given, the body stops producing its own. One of the good things about the steroid reduction, Jack no longer needs insulin to control his blood sugar.
Since Jack's biopsy on August 23, his left hand and arm have been swollen. Over the last several months, the swelling had increased coupled with the lack of mobility of any kind. Now that the pressure from the tumor has been removed, the swelling in his left hand and arm has completely disappeared. He is extremely weak on that side but he has bicep motion as well as lateral raises (elbow from side to extension upward). So far he does not have tricep function. He has also done some walking with a cane only. He walked 30 feet and 40 feet on two different occasions on Friday. Even though he has a long way to go, he is slowly regaining some strength.
Jack has always had what I have called a farmer’s appetite. One of the other side effects of steroids is a ravenous appetite. Jack called me at 3:00 AM on Saturday morning to tell me he could not get anyone to give him a snack and he felt like he needed one. He wanted me to call the nurse’s station since he could not get a quick response from them. Needless to say, I was back in the business of “playing Carolyn and nurses” at 3:00 AM no less. I must tell you that I am highly motivated to prepare his snack of peanut butter and graham crackers and buttermilk or yogurt. I place it on his right side near his bed so that he can eat it when he feels hungry. I also programmed his cell phone to call the nurse’s station instead of the “Central St.” station. I am totally excited about his removal from steroids!!
Jack has minimum energy at the moment. For those of you who have visited him this weekend, you probably were disappointed in his desire to talk. He is sleeping a lot. Everyone is very happy about his resting coupled with his food intake. Nothing could be better for him at this point.
This week was my 60th birthday and I must say the best present I could have had was to have Jack beyond the prior difficult week. Many of our friends, neighbors, and coworkers helped me ring in this milestone. Jack and Courtenay conspired with Courtenay doing Jack’s shopping and delivery for him. Thank you everyone for creating a fun few days.
Jack has a long road to recovery. He has his next appointment with his Lahey Clinic team next Friday. We are still waiting for the results from the CA oncology lab to see what chemotherapies might work on the tumor tissue that was extracted during surgery. The potential need for additional chemotherapy is due to the likely potential of not extracting all of the live tumor cells.
His radiologist was surprised by the amount of tumor death that Jack experienced. She said that very few people have had that kind of tumor response. We believe that our Lord has heard the legions of prayers that have been prayed all over the world.
We continue to need your prayers, encouragement, and comfort during this arduous recovery. Jack continues to proclaim the comfort of our Lord and sing his praises to all who listen. It makes me think of the verse in Psalm 71:8 – “My mouth is filled with your praise, declaring your splendor all day long”. I will continue to update as our lives are adapting to all of the changes and challenges that we have faced over the last few months. We thank our Lord for each and every one of you.
Blessings,
Carolyn
UPDATE
“A difficult week ends peacefully” – this was the headline in the Boston Globe a week ago slightly edited by switching day in the Globe to week by Carolyn.
Jack was transferred back to New England Rehabilitation Hospital on Monday from Lahey Clinic where his surgery was performed. Thankfully, Jack’s sister Myra was able to oversee this transfer which allowed me to work. The transfer went well. He is in Room 102 which is the same area that he was in before. By being in the same area, he has the same therapists. Since they had a very good understanding of him prior to surgery, we believe that they will be better prepared to know what his regression is and where to begin again with him.
Keep in mind that Jack had two major surgeries last week. He was also on 16 mg/day of steroids to reduce brain swelling. He still has two blood clots in his groin and left leg. Now that the tumor is gone and the surgical procedure swelling diminished, the latest medication is a blood thinner to dissolve the clots coupled with a major reduction in the steroids. Steroids give people a false sense of energy and very bad side effects. One of the primary reasons for the surgery was to reduce the steroid use. He is now taking 6 mg/day. Reducing steroids has to be done with much precaution. If the reduction happens too quickly, the body can go into shock. We produce steroids but not enough to control the kind of swelling that Jack had. When extra steroids are given, the body stops producing its own. One of the good things about the steroid reduction, Jack no longer needs insulin to control his blood sugar.
Since Jack's biopsy on August 23, his left hand and arm have been swollen. Over the last several months, the swelling had increased coupled with the lack of mobility of any kind. Now that the pressure from the tumor has been removed, the swelling in his left hand and arm has completely disappeared. He is extremely weak on that side but he has bicep motion as well as lateral raises (elbow from side to extension upward). So far he does not have tricep function. He has also done some walking with a cane only. He walked 30 feet and 40 feet on two different occasions on Friday. Even though he has a long way to go, he is slowly regaining some strength.
Jack has always had what I have called a farmer’s appetite. One of the other side effects of steroids is a ravenous appetite. Jack called me at 3:00 AM on Saturday morning to tell me he could not get anyone to give him a snack and he felt like he needed one. He wanted me to call the nurse’s station since he could not get a quick response from them. Needless to say, I was back in the business of “playing Carolyn and nurses” at 3:00 AM no less. I must tell you that I am highly motivated to prepare his snack of peanut butter and graham crackers and buttermilk or yogurt. I place it on his right side near his bed so that he can eat it when he feels hungry. I also programmed his cell phone to call the nurse’s station instead of the “Central St.” station. I am totally excited about his removal from steroids!!
Jack has minimum energy at the moment. For those of you who have visited him this weekend, you probably were disappointed in his desire to talk. He is sleeping a lot. Everyone is very happy about his resting coupled with his food intake. Nothing could be better for him at this point.
This week was my 60th birthday and I must say the best present I could have had was to have Jack beyond the prior difficult week. Many of our friends, neighbors, and coworkers helped me ring in this milestone. Jack and Courtenay conspired with Courtenay doing Jack’s shopping and delivery for him. Thank you everyone for creating a fun few days.
Jack has a long road to recovery. He has his next appointment with his Lahey Clinic team next Friday. We are still waiting for the results from the CA oncology lab to see what chemotherapies might work on the tumor tissue that was extracted during surgery. The potential need for additional chemotherapy is due to the likely potential of not extracting all of the live tumor cells.
His radiologist was surprised by the amount of tumor death that Jack experienced. She said that very few people have had that kind of tumor response. We believe that our Lord has heard the legions of prayers that have been prayed all over the world.
We continue to need your prayers, encouragement, and comfort during this arduous recovery. Jack continues to proclaim the comfort of our Lord and sing his praises to all who listen. It makes me think of the verse in Psalm 71:8 – “My mouth is filled with your praise, declaring your splendor all day long”. I will continue to update as our lives are adapting to all of the changes and challenges that we have faced over the last few months. We thank our Lord for each and every one of you.
Blessings,
Carolyn
Frank Rhodes - a former student
Dear professor Howard
I was saddened to hear that you have been diagnosed with brain cancer.
I wish you the best as you struggle with this challenge.
I received a MS/BS thesis from your and worked in your lab in 1980 and 1981. You were head of the ChemE Dept at the time.
I did a bunch of coal pyrolysis experiments on your fancy dancy machine. I mostly took data, but you were generous enough to let that pass as a master’s thesis anyway.
Not only did I learn about coal, but became quite the beer sophisticate, as well. Your head lab technician taught me a lot in both arenas.
You were always kind, not too demanding and always friendly and available. I remember the whole experience fondly.
After about two years plying the Chemical Engineering trade, I ended up becoming and entrepreneur. Flipping houses and running/growing a family sign business.
Again, all the best as you deal with this challenge
Regards, Frank
I was saddened to hear that you have been diagnosed with brain cancer.
I wish you the best as you struggle with this challenge.
I received a MS/BS thesis from your and worked in your lab in 1980 and 1981. You were head of the ChemE Dept at the time.
I did a bunch of coal pyrolysis experiments on your fancy dancy machine. I mostly took data, but you were generous enough to let that pass as a master’s thesis anyway.
Not only did I learn about coal, but became quite the beer sophisticate, as well. Your head lab technician taught me a lot in both arenas.
You were always kind, not too demanding and always friendly and available. I remember the whole experience fondly.
After about two years plying the Chemical Engineering trade, I ended up becoming and entrepreneur. Flipping houses and running/growing a family sign business.
Again, all the best as you deal with this challenge
Regards, Frank
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Beautiful message from Tom Bowman, a colleague from Stanford University
I would encourage all of you who follow the blog to take the time to open this absolutely beautiful electronic card and rejoice at the message it delivers.
Carolyn
Dear Carolyn and Jack,
Tom Bowman (ctbowman@stanford.edu) has sent you a Jacquie Lawson electronic greeting card.Please click on the following link to see your card. If your e-mail program has not displayed this as a link, then please copy the following into the Address or Location bar of your Internet browser.http://www.jacquielawson.com/viewcard.asp?code=1321785034171&source=jl999
Alternatively, please visit http://www.jacquielawson.com/ and select the Pick Up Card option in the menu. Then enter your card code, which is:1321785034171If you have any problem at all viewing your card, please click here:http://www.jacquielawson.com/help_1.asp
Carolyn
Dear Carolyn and Jack,
Tom Bowman (ctbowman@stanford.edu) has sent you a Jacquie Lawson electronic greeting card.Please click on the following link to see your card. If your e-mail program has not displayed this as a link, then please copy the following into the Address or Location bar of your Internet browser.http://www.jacquielawson.com/viewcard.asp?code=1321785034171&source=jl999
Alternatively, please visit http://www.jacquielawson.com/ and select the Pick Up Card option in the menu. Then enter your card code, which is:1321785034171If you have any problem at all viewing your card, please click here:http://www.jacquielawson.com/help_1.asp
Saturday, December 1, 2007
MORE GOOD NEWS DECEMBER 1, 2007
MORE GOOD NEWS
UPDATE
DECEMBER 1, 2007
Myra and I were in the hospital parking lot last evening when I received a phone call from Jack’s nurse, Donna, in the recovery room. Only 2 hours after surgery, Jack had given her my cell phone number to call me. We arrived in the recovery room, where Jack was amazingly alert and talkative. I got to give him the most amazing news that Dr. Cosgrove had tremendous difficulty finding any live tumor tissue for the tissue testing that is being done in CA. Jack was astonished to say the least. We are most hopeful and so grateful that this mass has been debulked.
While we were chatting, 2 of the medical doctor team members came by to check on Jack. They asked him if he could move his left arm that has been completely immobile for 2 months now. He not only moved it but he raised it several times with complete control. Jonathan and Courtenay arrived shortly after us. Jonathan, our filmmaker, brought his video camera and captured Jack talking and moving his left arm. The joy of this movement is magnified by the fact that Dr. Cosgrove, Jack’s neurosurgeon and primary doctor for his care, had told us that Jack had less than a 5-10% chance of any mobility restoration. We praise God, the Great Physician, for his most gracious mercy.
Jack is still in ICU this morning but he somehow managed to get access to a phone and called me at 6:00 AM. He said he had not slept all night but decided that we should come in this morning instead of later today. I had told him last evening that we would be in later today since I was certain he would be exhausted and needed to rest today. He told me that since the picture had changed as the result of the surgery, that he wants to talk to us. Since my Dad calls each morning, Jack beat him to the call this morning. It was a most wonderful call.
The legions of prayers have been heard by our merciful Lord. His strength continues to be magnified in our weakness. My weakness, for sure, is the unbelief of the possibility of such a miracle as this one. “Lord, help thou my unbelief.”
As we all continue to rely on our Lord and His sovereign mercy, I am so reminded of
Habakkuk 3:19
“The sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer to enable me to go to the heights.”
As we continue to pray for mercy, strength, and hope, we embrace all of you have been such prayer warriors on our behalf. Please continue as the Lord leads.
Love and Happy December,
Carolyn and family
UPDATE
DECEMBER 1, 2007
Myra and I were in the hospital parking lot last evening when I received a phone call from Jack’s nurse, Donna, in the recovery room. Only 2 hours after surgery, Jack had given her my cell phone number to call me. We arrived in the recovery room, where Jack was amazingly alert and talkative. I got to give him the most amazing news that Dr. Cosgrove had tremendous difficulty finding any live tumor tissue for the tissue testing that is being done in CA. Jack was astonished to say the least. We are most hopeful and so grateful that this mass has been debulked.
While we were chatting, 2 of the medical doctor team members came by to check on Jack. They asked him if he could move his left arm that has been completely immobile for 2 months now. He not only moved it but he raised it several times with complete control. Jonathan and Courtenay arrived shortly after us. Jonathan, our filmmaker, brought his video camera and captured Jack talking and moving his left arm. The joy of this movement is magnified by the fact that Dr. Cosgrove, Jack’s neurosurgeon and primary doctor for his care, had told us that Jack had less than a 5-10% chance of any mobility restoration. We praise God, the Great Physician, for his most gracious mercy.
Jack is still in ICU this morning but he somehow managed to get access to a phone and called me at 6:00 AM. He said he had not slept all night but decided that we should come in this morning instead of later today. I had told him last evening that we would be in later today since I was certain he would be exhausted and needed to rest today. He told me that since the picture had changed as the result of the surgery, that he wants to talk to us. Since my Dad calls each morning, Jack beat him to the call this morning. It was a most wonderful call.
The legions of prayers have been heard by our merciful Lord. His strength continues to be magnified in our weakness. My weakness, for sure, is the unbelief of the possibility of such a miracle as this one. “Lord, help thou my unbelief.”
As we all continue to rely on our Lord and His sovereign mercy, I am so reminded of
Habakkuk 3:19
“The sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer to enable me to go to the heights.”
As we continue to pray for mercy, strength, and hope, we embrace all of you have been such prayer warriors on our behalf. Please continue as the Lord leads.
Love and Happy December,
Carolyn and family
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